These hands and the POLICE

For stupid reasons, I am talking about hands and that shows how my brain is probably is right now.

Shit things first. You know that my car was broken into last Wednesday. Yes it was for the people who probably wont scroll down and read the hilarity behind the whole kerfuffle. The total damage report that I have lost nearly RM500 in the whole shit whole of a situation.

RM300 RADIO + RM30 Some stuff + RM150 For a new window + RMsomething for my thumbdrive = RM500

The car window shop did a good job tidying up the broken glasses in the interior of the car. Until the fact that I went home and found some other shards of glass still resounding in the door and under some parts of the car. A grim reminder of what happened on that fateful Wednesday afternoon. That cost me RM BLOODY 500.

This all leads to the matter of the hands, that tried to clean the  broken glasses and got hurt. A bit. It hurt my heart more seeing my car like that. But then, why bother. I’ll be heading out to get it vacuumed.

Oh, did I mention about the police? HAHAHAHA

That was my first time in a Police Station. You know what? That was probably the most cheerful police station in the friggin world. Everyone was making jokes and laughing all the time including me. We all the time hear about police brutality and the constant blaming of the police force for some cases. But you see, I didn’t get pummelled to death did I? They even gave a little encouragement to me. Making a report seemed daunting at first, but it wasn’t at all a hassle but it did take a bit of time to finish it. Like the officer said ‘Macam buat karangan’(like making an essay). It was as simple as that. You know what, if you didn’t do anything bad, like most of you have probably you wont have to be so damn afraid of the police that much. Unless you are an illegal immigrant or a ‘mat rempit’, or a serial rapist, then you would probably be pissing your pants every time you see a police officer.

That brings me to this part. Wonder why some people who in record has never have spoken, called or communicate with the police hate the Police Force that much? Wonder why? In logical forms, we would logically thing they have fears or trauma with the police. But no, that is never the case. It would be logically and rationally be thought that they have done something wrong that probably broke the law. Meaning, only when only criminals fear the police, probably people who hate the police, people who fears the police and people who runs from the police are automatically criminals in potential or criminals already. These theories are always coming out from my brain these days.

Facts cannot be overthrown by mere fantasy. Unless you take ecstasy pills, you would probably like fantasy more, that’s the only reasons why. Why? Creativity and fantasy is what designs a building, but logic is all what holds it up. So, if you don’t have logical thinking running in your head at all, you’d probably be dead eating a shiny metal thinking it was food in your fantasy ridden world. That’s why my theories are nearly always correct. HAHAHAHA…

This is what happens in reality…

Happy Horrible Birthday Hafizan

 

The 18th of January 2011 was my 22nd birthday.

4 days before that, I bought a JVC radio for my car intended as my own personal birthday happy damn present for my damn self. It had an USB input so I could put my thumbdrive and cheer the happy music I had put in it.

But on the 19th, the day after my happy happy day this happened.

The window was broken into(see the empty window frame mysteriously without an intact glass?),

the new radio I bought and THE FRIGGIN CLOCK is now missing from the centre console(see the mysterious hole without a radio an a clock?).

 

HAPPY HORRIBLE BIRTHDAY HAFIZAN,

happy horrible birthday…

This is what you get for wanting to be happy for a day. For the people who hate me, this day would be marked in their lives as a nice day to go out and celebrate my ‘afflicted, bad break, behind eight ball, black, calamitous, cataclysmic, catastrophic, cursed, dire, disastrous, down on luck, hapless, hard luck, ill-fated, ill-starred, inauspicious, luckless, miserable, ominous, out of luck, star-crossed, tough luck, tragic, unfavourable, unhappy, unsuccessful, untimely, untoward’ day that I do not want to remember.

I know that some people, people who are close and dear to me, in their hearts are happy that this happened to me. Why? Because they are ungrateful communists that’s why. They smiled when they heard this happened. How do I know? I have eyes. Two of them. One in my right and the other in my left eye socket. Dude, you should really lie with your face more. It shouldn’t have been that obvious when you smirked.

I’m not gonna go into the who did this and who I suspect. Because I’m smiling right now. No, I’m not going senile or going bonkers with a machine gun in a mall. I’m not that stupid. Because I know who to blame for this incident in the first place. Who? The administration of UniKL-BMI. Hey don’t mistake me with people who hate their universities. I adore my campus. I just hate the people who make it a horrible place to study. I hate the people who made me park my car at a place very visible from the guard house and didn’t even know my car was violated until the police had arrived. I blame the people who couldn’t care less when I said to them I wanted to park inside. I blame the stupid people who made us car drivers park outside the campus. I blame you, the management of UniKL-BMI. You made this happy person a pissed person. Thank you. I hope you all go to heaven faster than all of us. I hope you enter heaven knowing that I hate you for making me a sad student who had his birthday present that he bought for himself stolen because of the policy that you yourself made. Thank you. Thank you very much.

As most of you don’t even care or don’t even know how to read English properly even when you work or study at an institute called British Malaysian Institute, I would like to tell you that this post isn’t intended to or for anything. Its my solace towards my car that has never been ungrateful to me unlike some horrible people I personally know and see everyday. A car that only have given me smiles and only asked me fuel in return. It is my way of getting comfort and I know it could have been worse. Unless you people want me to go kill some thieves, I would rather do something that would make their lives a more a living hell.

Happy Horrible Birthday Hafizan. Happy Horrible Birthday.

21 to 22 and Final Year Project and the secrets of life

Today, is the 16^th of January. Why is that in any importance is beyond my comprehension and ability to really care. This is probably because I'm turning 22 within these few days and the knowledge of that is beginning take its toll on my perpetual critical thing called my friggin mind. Well, I could ignore it and still believe that I am still the youthful idiot that I was before. But the one thing humans couldn't escape from in any way is reality. Because we live in reality and maybe some would like to think they live in a world called 'fantasy' but they are dead. Tough luck. Its the same old thing when you grow. Meaning you get older and the longer you wait isn't gonna make it better. It gets worse with time.

Double 2's ain't gonna make it subtle is it? My friend(yes, I have real friends), said that “hey look, I'm taking it just nicely. Why wont you?”. I simply thought in my head, “FFFFFFFFFFF” simply because I couldn't care more. Having an early life crisis is what the 20's mean for the young man that I am. Okay...enough with the age thing already. I’m gonna lock myself in retaliation of the bozo's who are targeting to get their revenge because I have been too nice to them when celebrating their past birthdays. Or I'll live in my car for 3 days, only getting out for class and the natural bodily needs.

And yeah, I bought the Kembara a new radio. A JVC something radio. It has USB inputs and I probably could live properly after this. Before the new radio, the volume control would suddenly put the volume to ZERO OR MAX every time the car hits a FRIGGIN bump or every time I CLOSED THE FRIGGIN DOOR. Also the USB FM car transmitter also gone kaput last week. So I didn’t have my fix of my head banging music every time I  drive to class. So that was why I managed to save a quarter of a tank this week. It was the LITE.FM listening each time I drive. Damn…

FINAL YEAR PROJECT

At last, my Property Defence System was accepted to be my Final Year Project. Now the project will go full speed ahead and probably be modified countless times then after that be a killing machine programmed to sniff out idiots and throw them with manure and laugh in resemblance of Fidel Castro holding a cigar on one hand and an AK-47 on the other. Being serious, I will make the full thing next semester. So there will be no casualties this semester. Except, if I died trying to code the secrets of life in the thing. To stupid people, they will be seeing that I am building a killing machine that is bent on killing their unborn children. To the crazy people, I am building a badass machine that is bent on world domination. To the simple minded, they wouldn't understand anything you say to them. To the serious people, VIVA LA LOCA DELAHOYA!!!! culo de mierda loco parece empeñado en algo rentable. Por qué!!!!

The under laying foundations for the project has already been planned and some has already been bought. Like the microcontroller, the servo motor and the screaming mice. Don't worry, no kittens were harmed during the writing of this blog post, I only harm humans. Now what I need is learning how to code properly. No point on having a kickass super car if you don't have petrol to use. Needs more coding hell in the future.

Water-cooled Peltier based Fridge

I have news. Bad news and good news. Bad news first, the watercooling component is great at warming the globe and the reservoir is leaking like a colander and the coolant needs to be replenished everyday which is stupid. Its like buying petrol when you have a solar powered car. That is just stupid full stop. The thing I could think to improve the design is to use a real car radiator and cry believing it will work. For god's sake, I'm using 3 fans to cool the reservoir/radiator down so the water wouldn't boil and create a sauna in my room. Great if you wanna have a sauna, bad if you wanna cool down an 80W peltier unit that needs to operate below the temperature of 65 degrees Celsius. The good news? The temperature inside is 11-12 degrees Celsius. I’d hope the temps were lower, but we all can hope and despair when it doesn’t work as intended.

As in the picture, you could see a wreck of a marriage between a horrible car accident and an engineering student’s mind trying to cope with mental instability.

1. the reservoir/radiator sucks
2. it has minor leaks
3. its loud
4. my mind is stretched thinking the workaround needed for this to even work
5. need more working to get more efficiency
6. I wanted a freezer class fridge, not a ‘pseudostupid not cold enough’
7. sigh…

Adieu…

Obligatory New Year 2011 Post

It's 2011
Happy New Year
For the sick fucks out there celebrating, die, just damn die already.

2011 Forecast

-Phone
Well, we all know that I have a HTC Touch Diamond. Sorry to say, it sucks. Its beginning to make my eyes pop out of their sockets for heavens sake. It was at first, nice and dependable. Features were bountiful if you knew what you were digging into. But lastly you were digging your own sorrow pitiful grave in the 'I want a useful responsive good solid phone' category. Well, it was meant to be my first experience in the smartphone era and boy did it flopped. Battery died within 2 no usage days. Internal memory that had its own idea when it wanted to work. No fucking kidding me. It was like a mat rempit. Most of the time it'll run fine and let me use the GPS navigation and sometimes it'll let you know that how it's pissed off at you in a frenzy of clusterfuck and die beneath a lorry carrying human waste. It probably just wanted to say "Screw You" and decided that it had no internal memory and dumps all notions of the fact that I needed to use the GPS for emergency purposes.

Leaving that behind, I'll be surveying a new phone within these first few months. An android phone preferrably. Why? Because I can, thats why. Looking at phones, I've eyed the LG Optimus One. But due to how the world works, the fucking phone was nowhere to be found at Low Yat Plaza. Those sick assholes. For that moronic reason, I'll probably buy another model. But since when do I surrender that fast? I'll make sure I get that type of phone. A 3 inch screen, HSDPA, Android 2.2(minimum), MiFi capabilities, 3.2mp camera, GPS and a good CPU in it. Why the specifics? HAHA, I have an idea coming into my brain. Well, the idea is still an idea.

-Computer
As I have a great desktop setup, I couldn't care less about upgrading. So there will be no upgrading the desktop except and I say except in a big way if only there was a need to upgrade the graphicscard to a DX11 compatible card.

I have a laptop. Yes, a laptop. An old one. A long time ago, it died on me. Well the motherboard did. The thing is, it was sent for warranty and returned all good. But since day 1, I hated it like an iron fist that reigned over the third reich. I've got several scores that I have to settle with this little shit.
First, the battery time is probably around 1 to lying hours. Every damn laptop shop tells you it'll manage 3 hours. Another clueless lying bastards in the IT world. It will not last for 3 hours on a sigle charge. That laptop lasted 1.30 hour with just light surfing or 1 hour of video. And that was when it bloody brand new. It was a laptop that you had to plug in to the wall at all times.
Second, it was friggin hot. Like melting cheese hot. This ain't no laptop anymore, it was a 'burn your lap to a crisp and kill your future children in the process' unmobile computer. It was so hot, that it's what doomed the motherboard of the laptop in the first place. I had to use a pure aluminium laptop cooler just to use it anywhere just so it wouldn't burn the table or melt the glass nearby. To decrease the heat generated, I had to throttle the CPU down and that fact irked me the most, hence the third and decisive shit it had.
Third, IT WAS FUCKING SLOW. Not only it was slow before the throttling, but when I had to throttle it down, it was like swimming through concrete that was hardening. Tough as it may be, I perservered as I only had to use that laptop from hell when I was travelling and when I was at my Penang residence.
Now, the old problem of the motherboard going kaput is like dejavu, but you know when it last happened. And its happening again! It's on its deathbed, dying with Ubuntu currently running on it. I've been only using the iPod Touch to do stuff when I was travelling these days and Apple may call it a personal computer or anything. But all I can say, how all that is a fantasy of the corporate world.

I need to buy a new laptop. Also within the first months of this year. I've been eying on the AMD Fusion platform for months. Well it did take AMD 2 years to just make the platform, but I am now interested. The promise of a 6-8 hours of battery life with a low power APU(CPU+GPU) that has good enough graphics to play HD videos without killing me in the process. Gonna wait after CES to choose any laptop that would probably make my dreams come true. A 10-13 inch screen, 6-8 hours of lying battery life and a good cheap price.


I'm bitter, but it's 3.15A.M. and I need to do stuff. So I'll be typing more of my forecasts for 2011.

Obligatory End of Year 2010 Post

Well, its nearly 2011, the year that I ironically turn 22...
Hence the 2X11=22...

Bad joke aside, 2010 was probably a year that no human alive wanted to remember that much. War, famine, disease are the usual headlines. And the fact that I turned 21. The pinnacle of of someone's early life crisis. Going 20 was bad enough, you had to put up with the fact that you're an adult in society that can now vote for the doom of your country and its people. Thats no small identity crisis, its the nation's now. Oh the humanity!

Planning ahead,
Some may wonder that what the hell would happen in 2012. Screw you. You have something else to think about. The thing in between. 2011.

First, you screw every date by still thinking its still 2010. Then you screw everyone in the vicinity. You sick fuck. Next year, there will be more gore, swearing and eventually more pain. No more mister conservative minded crap. I've always maintained my conservative ways and never complained. You know what? I'm right winged. I am not a socialist or a communist. I support the people who have helped me in my life. Who? You know who you damn socialist bastards.
Listen, its just logical. Nothing personal. If my parents brought me into this world and raised me till what I am today, am I gonna just leave them to die? No, I care for my parents. I love them. I am thankful to them. Sure I'm not the best child there is, but I am still grateful of what they have sacrificed for me. The same is for me as my opinion in politics. Am I gonna support a pack of immoral communist and socialist people when all they have done for me is to instill anger towards the people who have done good towards me? Its like telling me to kill my parents and ridicule them. That for me is bullshit. My father was a government employee, and that fact cannot change that the government helped my family towards what it is today. Am I gonna call them lamb burning immoral bastard? No, I will only support them for their cause. Why? Because I will not be an ungrateful person. Towards my parents or my friends or anybody that have helped me within these 21 years of life. I am more grateful to God, that He gave me the rationality to think properly and decide what is good or bad.

I will tell you why. Because I have been used, forgotten, humiliated and backstabbed by people who are close to me countless times. These people doesn't care what happens to others, they only care what they think is best for them only. And why am I so bitter about this? Because of me, they lead a nice life knowing that they could do something to change anything for the better, but decided not to. Those sick assholes.

I'm sorry that this post seems a bit gloomy, but this year for me is precisely that. It wasn't a happy year for me. Love life in shambles, education having its ups and downs(mostly downs), future of my life doesn't seem that nice. And reading back my own diary won't do any good to improve morale as it's filled with suicidal thoughts when I was young and probably stupid beyond comprehention.

So, adios to 2010 and hola to 2011. May God bring suffering to the lamb burning communist and socialist groups that roam this putrid little lonely pale blue dot. And may I get a happier life knowing when the worst happens, it can only get better.

-sincerely, from me Hafizan.

P.S.-Knowing that most of my readers are socialist. I will probably have no readers left. adieu!!!

Cooling down fire

Its been a while since I posted something here.

So I'll report the progress of my projects. But before that, I'm hot. Not that fashion thing but temperature humidity weather kind of hot. Why? Because I'm at my Penang residence that is located in the middle of nowhere surrounded by barren land and crazy motorcyclist making their stupidity show every time they open their eyes in the morning. Yeah it's hot. Children here turn into Africans when the school holidays come and turn back to idiots when they go back to school. Not to mention 5 year olds here drive motorcycles like they ride bicycles. Not to encourage illegal underage driving, I always give them the face when I see them. What face? The 'pity face' what else? Why? I'm pitying them because there will be one day that they will end up under a lorry carrying human excrement and crying shouting for their mothers. When I go to power one day, I'll make sure these incompetent morons gets shot from a 50cal rifle in front of their parents to let them not make the same mistake again with their other children. Well, there is a saying "You have to kill one person to warn a hundred others".

Okay, today's is the 27th. And new year's is about 5 days away...wait...WHAT??!!! I'll be in Penang for a few days, that means that... I'll be back in KL by the 2nd... This is totally a clusterfuck. Mind the swearing, WHAT??? I have just realized that I need to construct one more thing by the time the semester opens. Shit...

Okay, the report on the projects. I totally want to revise what projects are going to dealt with surging these two minutes of horror that I have realized that I have less than 2 days of constructing left in my calendar.

First,

-The prototype water-cooling for Peltier.

Was a great success. Even though I didn't finish making the reservoir and the radiator, the testing part went extremely excellent. I got a new record on the temperature gauge of -17 degrees Celsius. The previous best of -8 degrees Celsius was done on an air-conditioned room and 2 Peltier unit combined together to get that result. But his time, I used an 80W Peltier unit with my prototype water-cooling setup. Getting the -17 was a nice thing to watch. As before this, I had to do many things just to get my fridge to reach 18 degrees Celsius above freezing. And that was using 2 Peltier units and using 2 very noisy fans. Wonder what happened when I port the prototype to the fridge? Hope it'll result in a colder fridge. The first thing I construct when I get back to KL is that thing. A Water-cooled Peltier based fridge. Gonna do the sketches and dimensions so I won't mess everything and get myself electrocuted when switching on the thing by 240 volts.

-The FM transmitter bug.

Got the components, all of them. Just haven't got the time to solder and build the damn thing.

-The Property Defence System.

Have made the sketches but in experimenting with servos, the damn thing just won't do what I want yet. So there is progress and while this is still a project in the making, it is in the research phase. Learning is considered research you know.

And yes, air-conditioning is nice... Ahhh...

Sent from my iPod Touch 4g

Hafizan Security Solutions

Well, my life... Hmmm... There, I'd finish the post there. But it ain't enough for a normal post. My previous post would probably be about my projects. Particularly on the Property Defense System. Then I realized that there are two spelling for defense. 'Defence' and 'Defense'. Wait, there's only one spelling for defense? Ok, I'll use defense. Wait a minute. I'm suppose to use a British spelling because my country is in the Commonwealth. IT'S DEFENCE BITCH. A 'DE' with a 'FENCE' bitch. Haha!

Ok, back to the matter in hand.

The Property Defence System, is in construction. When I have time to think about it. The thing is, I don't have much time. Half of my time was doing nothing actually. Not because I want to, but it's because I'm always moving around the north the middle and the in-between of Malaysia. Ipoh, Penang and Kuala Lumpur. And my main place to store and make my stuff is in Ipoh. Where I spend one third of the holiday probably. And one probable factor is that I'm sick sometimes. Well, shit happens all the time don't they. The project is still a work in progress. Why? Because I have to learn a whole computer language from start. And that part is hard to do when I hate moving around when I do stuff. The thinking behind the project however hasn't stop. The ideas haven't stop transferring onto the paper yet. So the brain is working while my legs move. Yeah.

So what have I done the whole time? Well, the water-cooling block is basically finished. Except I haven't tested it yet with the peltier unit. The making part of the project was riddled with problems arising from the traveling issue and the liquid leaking out from the cooling block. The reservoir and the radiator hasn't been made yet. Well, this was meant to be an experiment of prototyping a water-cooling system for the peltier cooler.

One thing, a mystery probably. After the components buying in KL, my knee has not stop hurting till today. Well, I did probably walk the whole golden triangle and pudu(yes walked, not using public transport most of the time). And now probably 2-3 weeks after it still hurts. It's the knee I use to drive the automatic car for heavens sake! Why the leg I use most?!! Now I probably need to buy a knee brace or support thingy now to not make my knee fall off or something.

And on Wednesday I'm accompanying my friend to KL for some business. Shit, my knee is going to really thank me for traveling 200km to somewhere and be back by the end of the day. Thank you moron maybe.

And why did I survey prices for katanas? Shit... The prices were so... Google it yourself... Katanas... Sigh... No, I'm not committing harakiri or something. Nor I'm gonna behead someone with it. So don't go thinking anything yet. Hahahaha... Always wanted buying one.

Sent from my iPod 4g